Colossians 1:22 reads, "But now he has reconciled you by Christ’s physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation" and my response is "Whoa."
Why? Because I felt the nudge of the Holy Spirit to get back into the Word as I've struggled with being consistent since about a month after I returned from IHOP. Yeah, so the moment I get back in, my lame desire was to find a short book to read and the Book of Colossians came to mind, which as it turns out, is only four chapters. The interesting thing is that verse 22 is exactly what I have prayed (for a long time now) over just about every person I pray with...wow. I usually pray, "God, You say he/she is holy, pure, and blameless. There will never be a day that You find blame in him/her. You will never point an accusatory finger." Does God know me or what? I was blown away.
It just presents even more evidence to me that the Holy Spirit is alive and well as I already know, but when I get down on life, the Lord reveals Himself in even greater ways than what I ask or imagine...funny, huh?
Yeah, so needless to say, I read the whole Book three times. I'm still a bit taken aback at how DAD knows His daughter. I had no idea that was actually in the Bible...call me crazy, but I didn't. I just thought it was something cool and true that the Holy Spirit gave me to pray over people. Of course! Because it's IN the Bible. How awesome is He! I'm still in awe...
Now, something I wasn't so "in awe of" was written in Colossians 3:8, which reads, "But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips." I'm currently living w/ my mom and well, this verse really brought a heap of conviction on my heart and spirit. It wasn't guilt b/c I didn't feel shame/blame. It wasn't an accusatory finger, but it was a definite rebuke of the Holy Spirit saying pretty clearly, "I want to cleanse you of this and I'm not talking about a partial cleansing either." Ouch...yeah, so I'm on this journey of being cleansed. And what this means is that my entire past upbringing of the first 18 years of my life that were filled with negative examples of anger, rage, malice, bitterness, and unforgiveness are now in the process of being cleansed. So...the Holy Spirit has begun what I would describe as a very. long. process. The one good thing about this though is that I'm not married w/ a family of my own, so I'm incredibly grateful that it's happening now. I'm just not looking forward to this process. Being that it's already begun, I've already felt the sting of having given into allowing my anger to control my tongue 3times in the past month and a half. "Dear Lord, fix it PLEASE." It reminds me of that song I used to sing in church as a kid. The lyrics are...
Change my heart oh God,
Make it ever true.
Change my heart oh God,
May I be like You.
Change my heart oh God,
Make it ever true.
Change my heart oh God,
May I be like You.
You are the potter,
I am the clay.
Mold me and make me,
This is what I pray.
Change my heart oh God,
Make it ever true.
Change my heart oh God,
May I be like You.
It's funny how God brings songs from long ago to mind at various times in our lives...yeah, He really knows what He's doing. So...here we go, continuing this journey toward deep adoration...
Friday, November 12, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
It's been too long...
So...yeah, I explained previously that I'm not really good at this blogging thing. I try, but it's just something I struggle with...it's my journey though, so I'll embrace it; the good, the bad, and the really slow and inconsistent. I know I'm a constant work in progress, so I'll continue walking. I'll get there someday. I know the key is not to quit. I was just watching a really encouraging talk from a prayer/prophetic conference at IHOP, maybe it will encourage you too. It was session #6 by Misty Edwards. She was the speaker for that session, not the worship leader. You can watch it if you'd like at http://www.ihop.org/Publisher/Article.aspx?ID=1000092342
I'll try to be more consistent...I'm really going to work on that. God bless.
I'll try to be more consistent...I'm really going to work on that. God bless.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Last night...
Okay, so this is 2 days in a row. Just don't get excited b/c I'm pretty sure this won't be an everyday thing, but for now, here's my 2nd post...
I was uploadiing pics to Facebook last night and it was getting uber late, but I was bound and determined to get them all on there since I'm not really good at keeping up w/ that. Anyway, my phone rang at 2:53 AM and I thought it must be important, so I answered it. Yeah, it WAS. My friend called because her heart had been broken and she just cried. I was so sad for her. The guy led her on (unintentionally) and well, the result is broken heart. The sad thing is that she thought everything she was hearing was God's voice. She felt like she should allow this guy to pursue her b/c she thought it was God. She took this road trip to go see him because she thought it was God. She then found herself crying on the phone utterly confused because she really sincerely thought she had heard from God about this guy.
I knew how she felt...can't tell ya how many times I have leaped in one direction or another believing that I was hearing from God. I've done it so much that I only recently have begun to trust that I'm actually hearing His voice and that's only b/c of what happened during my 3 mth internship.
Anyway, back to last night...we talked and I shared w/ her my MANY moments of not hearing Him when I thought I was and therefore, well, we'll just call it what it is, I was in sin, idolatry to be specific. I was in idolatry for like 5 yrs regarding marriage b/c I thought this guy or that guy was from God when they ended up being totally NOT from God. My friend and I then chatted about the fact that she is growing leaps and bounds as she has recently stopped having premarital sex. I told her, "That's a BIG deal to God. He's not looking at you pointing at this specific thing in saying that you shouldn't have gone on this trip. Was it good for you? No. But He gets you and He loves that you're choosing to trust Him." Yeah, so it was a good convo. We prayed and I think she felt a little better. It's going to take time, but I trust the Jesus in her.
I got off the phone and looked up and thanked God for WHO He is b/c just the other day, I got a text from one of "those" guys, but b/c I've recently come to ADORE Daddy God, I was like, "Is that all you've got, devil, seriously? Not today. You're gonna have to try harder."
This whole adoring my Father is new to me...at least at this deeper level, but I'm loving every minute of it.
What are your thoughts about adoring Him? What are your thoughts about hearing His voice? Have you ever leaped before you realized that it wasn't Him?
I was uploadiing pics to Facebook last night and it was getting uber late, but I was bound and determined to get them all on there since I'm not really good at keeping up w/ that. Anyway, my phone rang at 2:53 AM and I thought it must be important, so I answered it. Yeah, it WAS. My friend called because her heart had been broken and she just cried. I was so sad for her. The guy led her on (unintentionally) and well, the result is broken heart. The sad thing is that she thought everything she was hearing was God's voice. She felt like she should allow this guy to pursue her b/c she thought it was God. She took this road trip to go see him because she thought it was God. She then found herself crying on the phone utterly confused because she really sincerely thought she had heard from God about this guy.
I knew how she felt...can't tell ya how many times I have leaped in one direction or another believing that I was hearing from God. I've done it so much that I only recently have begun to trust that I'm actually hearing His voice and that's only b/c of what happened during my 3 mth internship.
Anyway, back to last night...we talked and I shared w/ her my MANY moments of not hearing Him when I thought I was and therefore, well, we'll just call it what it is, I was in sin, idolatry to be specific. I was in idolatry for like 5 yrs regarding marriage b/c I thought this guy or that guy was from God when they ended up being totally NOT from God. My friend and I then chatted about the fact that she is growing leaps and bounds as she has recently stopped having premarital sex. I told her, "That's a BIG deal to God. He's not looking at you pointing at this specific thing in saying that you shouldn't have gone on this trip. Was it good for you? No. But He gets you and He loves that you're choosing to trust Him." Yeah, so it was a good convo. We prayed and I think she felt a little better. It's going to take time, but I trust the Jesus in her.
I got off the phone and looked up and thanked God for WHO He is b/c just the other day, I got a text from one of "those" guys, but b/c I've recently come to ADORE Daddy God, I was like, "Is that all you've got, devil, seriously? Not today. You're gonna have to try harder."
This whole adoring my Father is new to me...at least at this deeper level, but I'm loving every minute of it.
What are your thoughts about adoring Him? What are your thoughts about hearing His voice? Have you ever leaped before you realized that it wasn't Him?
Friday, June 18, 2010
Just my heart...
So...I've been encouraged by a few people to start writing, so here's my first attempt at this whole idea.
I've been listening to this A-mazing prayer cd and basically, here's my response...
Daddy God, thank You! I have SO much affection for You as I embrace ALL of You! I want EVERYONE to see my love for You because You are the ONLY one worthy of ALL my love!
God, I can't wait until EVERY knee bows and EVERY tongue confesses WHO You ARE! I ache to give You ALL of me and ALL of my love as I engage in the process. You are SO worthy of me and ALL of me!
Father, when I don't love You completely, I am incomplete. I admire You for WHO You are and NOT what You do. I want to love You rightly in Your loving kindness. You consume ALL of me. You are my reason for loving and You are my reason for living. Holy, holy, holy are You, God Almighty, who was, and is, and is to come. You ARE worthy!
As I grow in my knowledge of You, I just want more. I fix my gaze upon You and want nothing this world has to offer. I look behind the veil dimly and I seek You in secret. I sell ALL that I am to obtain this secret treasure of knowing You. I want to understand You and Your tender flowing heart. I want to grow in understanding Your thoughts, Your feelings, and Your ways. You are MY longing and I just want MORE of WHO You are, Lord and Daddy God. You aren't distant and as in John 5:20, I marvel after You. The enemy ATTEMPTS to defame You, but he fails EVERY time.
As the Shulamite woman said in Song of Solomon 5, I'm going to tell You who He is. He's altogether lovely. His eyes are tender and nurturing. His cheeks are like ivory, His heart is vibrant living and flowing. His touch is tender. His legs are strong and sturdy.This is WHO You are, Father, this IS who You are. I come to seek the knowledge of You, God.
I want Your perspective on everyday life, NO ONE else's. I want Your perspective, the new view, the best view. I want to see the earth in the way that You see it; politically, socially, economically. I want Your perfect perspective. Psalm 34:3 says that we will magnify You and I agree. I want to magnify You in EVERY area of my life, EVERY area. Your prophetic ways cause me to fall at Your feet in worship. I submit my ways to Your ways and my thoughts to Your thoughts, Daddy God.
I've been listening to this A-mazing prayer cd and basically, here's my response...
Daddy God, thank You! I have SO much affection for You as I embrace ALL of You! I want EVERYONE to see my love for You because You are the ONLY one worthy of ALL my love!
God, I can't wait until EVERY knee bows and EVERY tongue confesses WHO You ARE! I ache to give You ALL of me and ALL of my love as I engage in the process. You are SO worthy of me and ALL of me!
Father, when I don't love You completely, I am incomplete. I admire You for WHO You are and NOT what You do. I want to love You rightly in Your loving kindness. You consume ALL of me. You are my reason for loving and You are my reason for living. Holy, holy, holy are You, God Almighty, who was, and is, and is to come. You ARE worthy!
As I grow in my knowledge of You, I just want more. I fix my gaze upon You and want nothing this world has to offer. I look behind the veil dimly and I seek You in secret. I sell ALL that I am to obtain this secret treasure of knowing You. I want to understand You and Your tender flowing heart. I want to grow in understanding Your thoughts, Your feelings, and Your ways. You are MY longing and I just want MORE of WHO You are, Lord and Daddy God. You aren't distant and as in John 5:20, I marvel after You. The enemy ATTEMPTS to defame You, but he fails EVERY time.
As the Shulamite woman said in Song of Solomon 5, I'm going to tell You who He is. He's altogether lovely. His eyes are tender and nurturing. His cheeks are like ivory, His heart is vibrant living and flowing. His touch is tender. His legs are strong and sturdy.This is WHO You are, Father, this IS who You are. I come to seek the knowledge of You, God.
I want Your perspective on everyday life, NO ONE else's. I want Your perspective, the new view, the best view. I want to see the earth in the way that You see it; politically, socially, economically. I want Your perfect perspective. Psalm 34:3 says that we will magnify You and I agree. I want to magnify You in EVERY area of my life, EVERY area. Your prophetic ways cause me to fall at Your feet in worship. I submit my ways to Your ways and my thoughts to Your thoughts, Daddy God.
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